Monday, May 19, 2008
had a really crummy day la. damn fcked up and pissed off with someone. i think most ppl would just throw the friendship away or become enemies. but for some weird reason, i still respected that person and i wanted to still be friends with her.
surprisingly. its not because she's popular. or rich or whatever reasons that would draw ppl back to becoming friends. it was more of because i genuinely wanted to be friends with her. actually with most people, i'm like that. it's damn stupid coz i get hurt because of this simple reason.
like a friend i knew for quite a while. i always thought we were pretty good friends considering our circumstances. we hung out pretty much every holiday. but it all changed this year and it hurt me real bad. did she really want to throw away our history together just because of her newfound friends in JC? was i that unimportant to her? i never knew coz despite my attempts, she didnt care anymore.
moving on to more happier matters
i'm really excited for tomorrow's premier! i was so afraid i might not win but now that i have, it's like i'm in this denial that it actually happened. =)
*UPDATE*
we have made peace! well, sorta. we didnt have a war. just more like a talk to understand the situation and all. she's still my friend. =) and guess what, i think after this issue, we've probably gotten to know each other more. or i guess so la. i think i have. =)
surprisingly. its not because she's popular. or rich or whatever reasons that would draw ppl back to becoming friends. it was more of because i genuinely wanted to be friends with her. actually with most people, i'm like that. it's damn stupid coz i get hurt because of this simple reason.
like a friend i knew for quite a while. i always thought we were pretty good friends considering our circumstances. we hung out pretty much every holiday. but it all changed this year and it hurt me real bad. did she really want to throw away our history together just because of her newfound friends in JC? was i that unimportant to her? i never knew coz despite my attempts, she didnt care anymore.
moving on to more happier matters
i'm really excited for tomorrow's premier! i was so afraid i might not win but now that i have, it's like i'm in this denial that it actually happened. =)
*UPDATE*
we have made peace! well, sorta. we didnt have a war. just more like a talk to understand the situation and all. she's still my friend. =) and guess what, i think after this issue, we've probably gotten to know each other more. or i guess so la. i think i have. =)
what we could have been, 12:45 am.
